Technics

First of all, thank you for your comments. It made feel not all alone in the world!

Now just in short, though my mind is freakin´ out .. out of thoughts!

We fought, two weekends and I guess it was mostly me. Last Sunday Ingo left and let me know I have "time to think".

Then his profile at yahoo was dead, you know, grey. I thought, ok, I get the message. I have to think. I hope we can work it somehow out. Felt so darn bad, so darn lonely.

I noticed Skype was dead, too.

My connection to the world is payed hafl by me, half by Ingo but over his account and hence I thought... well. Did he order something? Am I aleady halfway out? Sure, this isn´t possible.

Yesterday evening he mailed me Pink Floyd´s "Wish you were here".

WHAT????

Yes, it was my turn to drive to him and I fought really hard not to do so. I thought he doesn´t want to see me.

Yahoo had technical problems. Ingo didn´t see my profile either.

Why didn´t we use the cell phones? Pride? Guilt (on my side). We could have e-mailed.
Whatever.
Skype worked, too yesterday.
We talked. I said I need time, a time-out. He agreed, probably ´cause I was apologizing for it already.

He just called me via cellphone and is now on the way to me.

Actually I really need a break. But then.

Somehow we will have some kind of break, just together.

Gotta clean up a bit, put the single bedsheet away, Ingo is coming with the big one!!!!