Did I Even Ask

Bout my E-Mail.. no-Thing
He is the most important person in my life.And I am No-Thing to him.
All the books I read, all the advise...
Nothing, huh?
He just doesn´t care about me. Or deoes he???

I hear him sneezing, once, twice, thre times, like always.
Where can I go to???

I asked to talk - we will not do this for a long time, he just said - he at least answered my mail.

A Blog is not the place to talk about that?!
I do have migraine NOW, I feel sick, left alone. Like an idiot. Hurt, humble.Sad.
Not amongst adults. No chance to fix my live.