A Love To Remember

I sure am lucky, my tooth doesn´t hurt at all.
Ingo suggested I take the pain-killers anyways for in case it takes them hours to work.
No idea if there would be pain in my tooth/jawbone.

Was a sunny day.
Like yesterday.
Now it´s over, cloudy and that was probably that for the week or weeks.
Global warming. Yeah.

You know how it is?
You wanna have the perfect holiday. And all goes just wrong.
Maybe it was just a misunderstanding.

Went to the park alone and found this:

You cannot read anymore who was in love with whom. It just made me aware it´s a waste of time to not be together, yet I fail to walk over again and... maybe it´s just a feeling but seems it´s always me giving in.
I can do that, yes.
But it hurts my feelings.

On one hand Spouse always tells how important it is he has his meals at the same times.
Yet... it´s 40 minutes past his "due-time" - now, tell me how is this possible?

It was a surprising "experience" to see how many single people of all ages roam the park...

At least. This did make me feel less lonely.
The Grey outside now speaks another language, though.

Some more "happy-lonely"-snapshots and no... I don´t wanna get any "awww, you poor...."...

This boat is such an "awww...", I´m just plain stupid/hurt-person.
Why is it always me giving in?

Am I of minor value?
If I don´t give in I stay alone?

I know.

There are waaaay bigger problems in the world than this.

This, though, is my world atm.

It´s Wednesday and I have to sound happy and supportive.
Wednesday is the day I call my Mum.
A story way too long, I can - or have to - say: She is not happy, she is not healthy - and Bro and me fail to help despite we try hard over all those years.
Not even little Niece can help here.

It sounds mean. But there are times - like when I feel bad myself, like... now - I feel like. Not calling.
But I can´t do that.

Maybe I have to be like a - not this (it smells bad!) - a lake. Calm, strong and full of... flowers?

Do I have a point to make here?

Well. Yes.
I´m sick of pretending I´m the strong one.
But here no one cares.

Anyone having the same problem? If so... what do you do? Just give in again, have no false pride (is it false?).