See Me There Not In Hospital

I´m the stupid one up there still holding on, the drama-queen leaf.

Ingo finally did it. He threw his health away for his job.

Very likely open stomach ulcer, only 78% blood left. He´s on the way to the hospital now via emergency PTA.
To the one where they nearly let him die, the only possibility.

I know I should see the positive, see it colorful like this tree I even took a pic of whilst getting hospital-stuff for him:

Maybe this is the warning he needed.

But, mind you. I feel like this:

And "funny" enough Ingo asked me why I fence him out.

I.Don´t.Know.

I feel hurt. I always have to understand others, I have to accept he strives for perfectionism and does not see his own faults.

He´s on the way to the hospital, or very likely there by now.
He left just like that, mad at me, me mad at him.
He said, no need you visit me. Or get me back - cause that´ll be in the morning. When you work.
But he said it like an accusation...

And now here I sit and think I should´ve cared better. And this is wrong!

And who cares about me - his parents.
Yesterday his Dad via phone, now his Mum via Yahoo.
I sure am thankful for having them.

Did I mention I want normality, boring normality - not in stock for me.
Sorry, I needed to get it out.

I sure wish he´ll be ok soon but realises he has to be more careful about himself. `nough drama-queened...

Hospitals... I know I should be thankful, but I hate them, especially this one. Holwede was good, but no, Salzdahlumer again. They are "specialized"...