This is for me, to reflect. This is my "diary"...
Skip it.
Studies went hullaballoo.
September 1st I NEED to start my training - I heard not a thing of fE, the new teamlead after mM had to leave..
Too late to ask another company - everybody at ESE said YES, we want you back.
I trusted them.
Tomorrow fK has her first work-day after her holiday and promised to talk to fE.
Taxes... I am willing to pay and gave all my stuff to a so-called professional.
Dumb questions came back. have to take care.
Another Telekurs starts, too.
Have still heard nothing from the last one.
My left monitor died.
Ingo took care! Two new ones for me and two new ones are in the "hall" (we call it "Flur" and it´s tiny).
Ingo buys me flowers and puts them in that pretty glass, getting rid of the old gherkins I didn´t manage for weeks with all the shit#y studying.
Ingo does so much!!!
Just not see the new doc and really, I think I´ll return to the old one, too.
I need vitamin E on a high dose due to my sun-allergy - I have to "bring time" to get the prescription. Hello what?!
Yet I think Ingo needs new medication!!!
Either way.
I can work hard. I worked 10+ hours for VW and drove home some 40km afterwards.
I was.... "IT". It was HTML, CSS, JavaScript, the "Baby-languages" I learned by myself. It was Photoshop and coordinating a "team". I was young.
Same for SIEMENS mobility as Bid-Manager and Admin, all new stuff, minus the driving, thanks to Covid. We luckily lost the bid and next was ESE, yippeee...
So same for ALSTOM - why always everything on the last dot?
Now as documentation and translation manager (these days we are all "managers"). At least I got payed properly, as Dipl.-Ing. (which, after all, took me 8 semesters where I did not earn money!).
Same for DB.
Meanwhile I packed advent-calenders... ha-ha---bleh.
NOW: Since February ... I lost count ... 22+ NEW stuff in units. I am 53 years old!!!
No holiday. Learning new stuff, new stuff, new stuff...
Tests etc etc.
Ingo: King in his jungle.
A job he, and apart from him... no one (?) knows.
He is clever.
I plan a post on all the stuff he did here!
I know how that is!!!! To work hard in a job YOU KNOW. You never stop learning but you have the basics -right?
At VW and DB I had no one else. Just me (no train so far derailed in Norway, just saying! I must´ve done my job OK, but it was scary. I put MY NAME and said, these trains are SAFE.
Have you ever done that? I felt sick and followed the news.
We speak of refurbished trains here. Older than me, still smoking areas on.
I think it was all too much and Ingo just says, "Go away".
I must be a pain.
I am a pain. In my head, in my heart.
I offered and did go grocery shopping with Ingo as his back is still in pain.
Took a ticket at the butcher and stood waiting (I could´ve wandered around, too, ticket, right. But then ... Germans. They queue. They pile up. Leave the queue, fight.....no...)
Then he needed a container for butter. Endless search. Endless and no container found, I got frustrated also because:
a) forgot to take my cam
b) there was the coolest wine-thingy in the world!!! (I am no fan of wine, but, this was cool!!!!)
A pic would´ve been enough but I then just wanted to buy it. €12 is not cheap but....
Ingo said "no". Who am I to ... maybe he was right. My money? Is it mine? His? We are married.
But... last I saw a pub from the inside was in Perth 2024, a cinema... 2010 (Head Full of Honey - great movie - and my boss´d payed for the two of us)..
You see.... FINALLY the Aussie-concept for wine came over AND it had a maritime-theme.
Cash-out, Ingo jumping around where you are the "fastest".
No!!!!
I do not wait endlessly till you find out there is NOT the butter-thingy you look for and then flip here!
Yes! There was an elderly in front and it took longer.
Just wait and WE will be "the elderly"!
I kept quiet but somehow...
I must be so negative... so overwhelmed.Ingo does not want to see me.
I try to understand and "master" studies, taxes and all that.
And see the flowers.....
Henry is too sad today. I keep on fighting.
My left eye makes funny sounds since three days - but try to see a doc, hahaha...
Also... summer?
16 comments:
You're not a pain, Iris! Stop thinking about yourself that way. I really see someone else, even at a distance like this. You're not old. I see a nice, still young woman, who has worked too hard and who is in need of rest. Try to take that rest.
...Iris, you seem to have to juggle so many things in your life. I hope that things settle down a bit for you.
Thank you Bertiebo. I need to go on or I lose. They give a break come 18th, yippee.
Thank you, Tom. I need to get this. By my own. Ingo tried and is fed up.
You go girl!
I will try - thank you!. But for the first time .... just a try.
Don't ever put yourself down. You are amazing!
Iris, you are a wonderful person with a good heart and a great sense of humour! Sending you warm hugs and much love, dear friend. :)
Iris, don't get so down on yourself, remember your one tough woman.
It feels good to let it out, doesn't it? I hope it helps and you feel better too. You can do it. You can do it. remember that. hugs-Erika
Thank you, but.. amazing does not fit right now....
Thank you, dear friend. Right now I must send negative vibes to Ingo or I just... am done. New day, new start....
Tough needs help, too, Bill, at times...
It NEEDED to get out or I´d screamed - and the neighbors would not like that, haha.... I try anew today, thank you for being there!!!! I appreciate this a lot, hugs
It bothers me too when people hop around looking for the fastest checkout, just get in line and wait your turn like everybody else. You are definitely NOT a pain. I really do hope a job comes after all the training. AND...I think someone needs to be trained, by Ingo, so there is someone who knows how to do his job when he is ready to retire. With his back trouble and other things, that might be sooner than he wants, so train a new person.
The flowers are beautiful.
YES to all of that!!!
His "boss" does not care. If Ingo... for some reason... has to leave.... the project (I am not playing this) might die. Will. And then.... How many "drown" with that. Not the "boss" - he has money (banker from Frankfurt).
The flowers start to bloom!!!
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