Ingo´s Dad once sent me a Birthday-card that described me as a very loyal person.
Like in very, very.
Like in "once you earned her trust" and so on.
And it is true, too true.
Usually I do not make "New Year´s resolutions" but reckon I have to.
I´m not loyal, I´m an idiot and I have to stop that.
Those candles?
From a wedding of a person who let me down this year. In January.
2009 they got married. I kept these all those years. Don´t ask me why.
She made me/us this:
Get rid of it?
What would you do?
It´s very obviously not true, I´m so not "Mrs Always Right".
I always do these things.
Make excuses why others do things they do.
Treat me crappy.
I "let it go", "start fresh", make people comfortable, no matter how hurt I am.
This has been a crap year.
And I tried to see the positive all.the.time.
I finally have to stop this.
I am and will always be loyal but I have to stop being an idiot and I made the first step by burning these stupid candles.
On December 30th, so it´s not even a "New Year´s resolution".
Right thing to do, right?
I let things go still, but differently.
(What do I do with that cushion?)
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