I told about neighbours H.
I was so sad afterwards, so sad.
And we repeated this just yet again...
Maybe cause my life-situation is crap at the moment, too, but mainly cause I think it happens to me all the time.
I feel with people, guess you call it empathy.
What is it good for?!
With T, whose girlfriend died so slowly of darn cancer it was helpful, yes.
I guess.
But with our neighbour?
I listen to the very same stories (plural) for countless times.
Sometimes I "fear", is it a test?
It´s never (I guess).
She happily after an hour makes her way up to fourth floor (!!! - there is no lift) and I reckon by the time she arrives she´s forgotten about telling me all her stories.
Again.
Hopefully a happy feeling stays, but me.
I sit there - again and again - think of my Grandma, this darn Dementia/Alzheimer´s and feel very sad. Afraid, too, I don´t wanna be a burden... It can happen to any of us anytime.
Other neighbours brush her off.
But I can´t.
And I start asking myself, as her desease grows, what is it good for that I stay and listen and feel bad later.
Bro said I should stop having contact with T as it makes me sad.
No?
It´s giving and taking, too. When Ingo is sick T is there for me also.
He took care of Miss Mango, look how big she grew! :-)
I always feel for others and too often - here in Germany - learn few feel for me.
So.
What is it good for I do feel (for others - all the time)?
Can you relate, do you have an advice?
Lion of the day...
"To Live and let live - Street art against hate"...
(I bought a non-fiction book in Carnarvon in 1999. The man written about was 42 and suffered of Alzheimer´s.
It´s not a desease for old people, anyone can get it, anytime, even kids, but the "chances" certainly rise the older you get. As with heart attack etc, etc and Ingo is 7 1/2 years older than me... he has to live longer than me, too. Healthy. Right?)
5 comments:
Your avocado tree is looking great Iris, enjoying the sunny window :)
It's nice that you talk to your neighbour even though she might have Alzheimer's. I'm sure she likes you and that's why she chats to you.
Your neighbour does need that contact, and it's kind of you to do so.
Sami, thank you, I do enjoy this view every day :-)
Yes, she likes me, but also there seems to be no one else...
William, yes, I´ll keep doing it.
It's a happy medium, knowing when you can't give at that moment but being able to give when you can. Your neighbor is a lucky one to have you. It is good to talk with her and also good to be able to politely say, "I'd love to talk longer but I really do have to go right now. Perhaps, later."
I love your kind heart.
I think every act of kindness makes the world a happier place and you are a naturally kind person Iris, you would find it difficult to stop I think. So many people are too busy to care, make the most of your time before life gets too hectic again xox
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