I feel hurt and so lonely.
No talking.
Arm hurts and I don´t know why, meds do not help.
What hurts most.
I cannot talk to Ingo.
The man whom I married for in case I die first.
OK, I did it for love also.
And now Limpy, my hurting arm and I am a lonely, virtual mix of three ...
I train the arm - I do!!!!
Over the point of hurt.
Because my heart hurts even more.
"Aua" is what comes out of my mouth all the time.
Torn muscle or..... cancer? Who knows.
Doc? Waiting forever with coughing, sneezing peeps? If I was rich, but I ain´t.
I do know others are off worse,
But being left alone is bad, also.
What have I done, I do not know. And there is no communication.
If suffering was the point.
I do. Heart and arm.
Why? Publish? I feel so helpless...
We have but ONE LIFE.
Wished he.... you know,
12 comments:
Iris, I am so sorry to hear you so sad. I know that the pain is terrible and you are lost with no doctor. Maybe you should put on 2 masks, some gloves and a hat and just go to the Doc. You should stop working your arm. Allow it to rest. When you sleep put a pillow under your arm. These are things that helped me. I will light a candle for you. Hugs my dear friend.
What happened?
Thank you, Nicole, maybe I really should dress up.
The arm hurts, but that Ingo is "away" hurts so much more....
Thank you for being here..
I don´t know.. I love him. I feel very stressed, work-wise - and the arm "on top" is too much. And my expectation is understanding and support..
Expectation.. I don´t match his.
Sad we cannot talk it out.
Sending lots of positive vibes your way ...
All the best Jan
...Iris, from here I can only send you best wishes, be well soon.
Thank you, Jan, I battle my arm as best as I can! I do.
Thank you, Tom. I force my arm and it seems to work!
Everything DVArtist said. See a doctor or go to a hospital where they have machines for xray or something to see what is going on. Do you have a sling to support the arm and NOT use it? Give it time to heal. I don't think it could be cancer, as far as I know cancer doesn't cause pain until it is very advanced. But please see some about sort of medical help.
Ingo probably doesn't know how to react when you have pain and he probably worries but doesn't want to show it in case you worry more.
Do you know how you hurt the arm? What were you doing when you first hurt it? Overstretching? Heavy lifting? Be careful.
This had happened Easter two years ago before. Ingo snored. We have weight blankets for stress relieve.
Easter was cold. I got my warm left arm with force outside the heavy blanket and... well... hit Ingo, so he stops snoring.
Next morning I had to see the Doc... in a Christmas-sweater I just couldn´t take off cause I could not lift said arm.
Reckon the same happened with my right arm, the pain feels the same and I do not see myself sitting in a small room with people coughing, sneezing, spreading some virus (maybe plural) for the Doc to tell me the same as last time.
I need to be healthy and fit for the presentation, that is a lot of pressure...
I train the arm bit by bit and ... hahaha, bite my tongue through the pain.
The hospital made Ingo so sick he nearly died. Not kidding (63kg with 1.84m is no joke).
Thank you for caring, hence my long answer...
Iris, I am very concerned about you. It's time to look at your risks versus benefit. You risk getting flu or a bug going to the doc or hospital. But you risk more without. This could be a tendon tear. And those are serious and if not nipped in the bud, with the appropriate therapy and treatment, can result in surgery. (Ask me how i know.) I'm dealing with something similar with my foot now and I don't like being down. But they told me to rest it -- stay off it -- and I am. With an arm, a sling, anti-inflammatories (if you can take them) and therapy MAY be able to help. Not knowing makes the imagination run wild and even worse.
I understand your anxiety with the waiting room. But as River and DVArtist said, double or triple your mask and go. Please. You may be making this all the worse by not going. And practice doing things with your other arm in case you do require a sling. Remember, you are in a computer profession and we use our arms as our tools. You need to fix this. (I'm not scolding, just caring.)
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