Love

Ingo got new paper :-)
Is it a German thing or do you have motives on your toilet-/kitchen papers, too?

Well, it is a cute motive but I cannot really imagine that after such dark times people... well, yes, you have to move on and just really be happy, right?
Maybe this motive came just at the right time :-)
(And still I hope for a motive with the 70´s!)

Meds... will take me 14 days twice to get totally rid of them :-(
Makes three stupid months of this beautiful summer!

Lion of the day :-)
Well... I don´t even know if this is funny or not.
There is a German word, "Vollrausch" (drunken stupor) and this shop for knitting-stuff - "Wolle" (wool)....
Makes it wool stupor, can you knit yourself crazy?

At Night - And I Have My Life Back (Soon)

Anytime ... and so do I, at least for dinner.
Crazy what those darn meds do - got dinner from the Bambus Haus and could eat nearly as normal after forcing down half a med in the morning.

The day I was very falsly off the med totally - on Dr.´s orders, too - was the worst day of my life. In the end my whole body was shaking so badly Ingo wanted to call an ambulance and I was afraid to fall and pass out.
How can a Dr. be so unprofessional and/or dumb? It was so darn scary. And there were several very annoying things happening to my body, too.
All gone.
Sorry, if I go on your nerves with this, but I was never really "sick" - and likely will never see that woman again as Ingo does the job today for me, too, as I´m fitter but not fit enough.

Though WAYYYY fitter! :-)

I do not feel depressed but burned out and she even didn´t want to discuss it with me so I did "research" and will talk it through with our real Dr.
Over 7 weeks of plain enduring for nothing, what a waste!
I really need to listen to my body - and brain!!!

Lion of the day :-)

Not even 06:00 am and I got done so much already!
Don´t take such strong meds ever!

NO More Shit#y Meds

See, I tried.
Went onto the balcony, got some fresh chive etc etc, all the time gagging.
Forced down two bites and thought with that little I just cannot do the long walk to the doc.
What if I break down, will someone help or rob me?

Called, said I want no more of that stuff (aka citalopram), got my doc and she said:
Since I only took it weeks not years (plural!) I just can let go of it.

By the end of the month the stuff will be out of my brain and then we´ll see.
Call me stupid but later I cried out of relief.

Went back to bed and later the cold came again, I was freezing.
Those drugs are mighty :-(
Shivering, gagging.

Why ever did I try this stupid stuff so long?

T is better, H-H (who left the company a couple of years ago despite he was a partner) visited T and left greetings for me - all getting better :-)

Lion of the day.

Or so I thought :-(

Turns out I got the Antidepressant discontinuation syndrome.
So back to 10 mg and then let´s see. Shivering all over, can´t sleep etc - and wiki says the patient is to be told of this before - I wasn´t! I complained, she got pissed - how can she not tell me?!!

I even told her in the first place thatt I don´t feel good about it and asked if there is anything else I should now.
Trust a doctor - never...

And feeling like this I have to do the "resarch" myself, too! Now I am pissed!
I would´ve never taken this stuff!

Ingo is mad at me for not listening to my body much, much earlier and he is right, too.
I´m mad at myself...

It´s Not Autumn (Yet)

Oh, my goodness.
It was a cloudy day.
29C, though, yet some people were wearing long trousers and even jackets!

My... therapist ... said she´d seen it, too and it´s ridiculous, it´s not autumn (yet).

Some raindrops fell - SUMMER-raindrops, WARM, and some people took brollies.
I (short-sighted) enjoyed (I had a brolly with me, too, in case, but, hey, this was fab to feel! And I accepted the drops on my glasses for the fun.)

And she said I look terrible, the meds aren´t working for me (apart from the bad side-effects to which T said that´s like a round circle, a "bad side-effect"), LOL.

T... he does not only feel invisible but that his life is uneventful, "sad but true".
Now I DO worry.

Soon I´m off to the new doc and will talk it through with her what to do next.

I woke up with every muscle active.
That´s not exactly what the med is supposed to do (it was scary).

I think the next might not be the meds but the next stage in life.
My body feels hot, hot, hot, though my therapist (Ingo´s age) says the heaat does not stay for so long as in my case.
Advice anyone?

Finally another Lion of the day (guess I´m getting better already, health-wise)...

Blue-Orange

Taken in Pockelsstraße - no more to say as ... beautiful or rather scary?

Taking part again in Sami´s COLOURFULWORLD Monday Murals :-)

Straight

Kids aren´t as loud (at first) as adults - would YOU´ve thought so?
But they make up, SCREAMING.
Even the neighbours above with their loud TV threw their window close with a loud BANG to try and let them know... we´re here, too - but they (parents) don´t hear anything.
I´m a child of the early 70´s - "be quiet goddammit!" and adults came first...

Yep.
LOUD adults partying on Friday and beep, kid´s Birthday on Sat.

It´s refreshingly windy, so I didn´t think of a BBQ (and you don´t wanna sit on the balcony anyways).
Went to Gmyrek to get Ingo´s new love, some "TV-sausages" (yuck! We won´t ever fight over that ;-)...).

I overheard Friday how some "just laze at work", too - do I have to mention....

All my finger-nails but three are gone, too, they got so weirdly dry and hard they just broke.
Also my hair. Not only falling out but being so dry I never have to wash it (or dare to even).

Nothing is right these days and it´s a wonderful summer... or, rather an extraordinary one.

I want my normal life back.
Please...
Pretty please?

No Lion...

I´m (The) Invisible ((Wo)Man)

I ALWAYS try to STAY positive, right.

It started around lunch-time, I thought it´s another kid´s Birthday party but Ingo said, "no, look `just married`..."

And yes, I dunno.
But! They got louder by the hour.

Our balcony (all windows etc) are in a tiny square, so physics, right... LOUD. I can no more.
AAnd it got colder, too!!!

Always think more than three times before BUYING a place!!!
How... it´s such a nice place!!!
But in the aftermath... A condo is a stupid choice.

I don´t see good anymore.

My hair is falling out (meds?) and I never had much.
Too many problems (sorry, just ignore THIS post).
We had plans.... no Lion today.

Title.... See right through me...
And T said he feels invisible (I offered and heard not a thing, driving me nuts).





(I´m not on your back.)

There sadly is STILL no positive effect..
I wish upon a star....
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Have a laugh with me :-).
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